On August 14, 2009, I became twice born – the day I met my KrsnaGuru. I don’t know where to begin and what to describe of my most wonderful and amazing roller-coaster ride down the path of Spirituality I’m on.
Today on my 7th birthday, when I stop for a moment and look back, I simply cannot fathom the transformation which I have undergone and continue to undergo. What to describe of my KrsnaGuru? He is beyond any words that can ever describe Him, beyond my Ken and Understanding – whose ways are inscrutable and indescribable even by Vedas and Shastras. The scriptures still fail to understand who this Supreme Divine Being ‘Krsna’ is?
My KrsnaGuru is a Supreme Master who has manifested on this Planet Earth to establish Dharma and impart the most esoteric knowledge of all Knowledge ‘Bhagvad Gita’ which is to follow Krsna’s way of life – to live a righteous life and serve the purpose of this human birth, which is to attain Krsna. But never will Krsna ever reveal his true identity nor will he ever let the materialistic beings to know Him. Krsna through his delusive potency of YogaMaya deludes everyone and makes the mortal beings on this Earth believe that my KrsnaGuru is an ‘Ordinary Human-being’.
This video shows my transformation of before and after I met my KrsnaGuru - 2009 to-date.
Since then I began my learning at ‘RadhaKrsnaMai’s school which is the lineage my Guru comes from. This is my ‘Harvard’ and the education which is imparted here is not taught even in the Harvards of this material world. In order for me to get such profound knowledge I had to first leave my mind, body and ego outside of my Gurukul. I became like clay in the hands of my Master, who is the best Sculptor in this Universe. The entire learning from my past is being undone and I now have begun to ‘Learn to Learn’.
It has taken me seven years to even understand that, every word which my Guru utters is Gospel Truth and I cannot doubt or question what my Guru teaches. Even for a moment there has not been a break in my learning and tests of various kinds have been coming in my life to see how well I am able to stand the teachings imparted and whether I am able to apply them or not. The tests are never easy and it only continues to get more difficult by the day. Two things can happen in this – either I am able to survive the test and go ahead in the journey with my Guru or just like many of his other students who failed to survive his tests and tyrannical methods of teachings left him and walked out of the journey. Only when you have absolute faith in your Guru will you be able to survive these tests, which I continue to do with his grace alone.
One thing that I have learnt in all this is that, no matter what my Guru puts me through, I cannot lose faith in my Master. Krsna can be reached only when you have these four things, viz. Absolute Faith, Complete Surrender, Unconditional Pure Love and Exclusive Devotion. In order to attain these, I have to go down an arduous path, holding the hands of my Guru. In all this, the one lesson I will not forget is that, no matter what happens in my life I know it is for my Good alone and during the most difficult times this one lesson has helped me stand faith in my KrsnaGuru and continue to survive all the trials and tribulations which he puts me through.
This journey of mine with Krsna is an Eternal one in whose Leelas (play) I am the lead actress for eternity. It is incredibly exciting to go through the process of unraveling my ‘True Self’- Self-Realization in every life of mine with my Krsna. I thank this Human Birth without which I would never understand what it is to love Krsna. Who is this Krsna? Who am I? What is my purpose in this world? How to see God in everything? The list goes on and is never ending!
As the days go by I continue to go deeper in the Limitless Ocean (Athangha Sagar) of Krsna Consciousness. The depth of which I cannot touch but can go as deep as I wish to. I cannot pen these experiences here but, only express my heartfelt reverence for conferring on me all the grace in this world to this wonderful journey with You and finally come on to your side of life.
The job of a Guru is not an easy one and no one can ever fit in to his shoes. Krsna cannot be replaced by anyone. I know the amount of pain and suffering which my KrsnaGuru goes through every single day for me and every other student and this entire creation. He is a desireless being who gives selflessly and takes on everyone’s sin on himself. He is unaffected amongst the pair of opposites, ever established in oneness with his own Self. He does not covet anything in this world and lives on what people offer to him on their own. I don’t think I can ever completely describe my Guru’s greatness even if I write volumes of books.
KrsnaGuru, I offer my heartfelt thankfulness from deep within my being for everything. I seek forgiveness for all the misdemeanors and sins that I have committed knowingly and unknowingly. I want to express how grateful and indebted I am to you eternally. I am overwhelmed in the way you continue to transform me every single day. I see the beauty of this creation through Thine eyes and Thy grandeur and Glory in this entire Universe is stupendous. You made me see good even in the bad and rise beyond the material modes of Prakruti.
Nothing that I offer at Thy feet or do for Thee can ever repay anything that you do for me. Grant me Thy grace to follow in Thy foot-steps, to imbibe every teaching imparted and apply that knowledge to serve Thy purpose and attain Prema for Thy feet. I thank you for celebrating my 7th birthday and many more to come in this human life. Om Namo Bhagavade Vasu Devaya.